Worst Time of My Life

It's the first time when I feel this is the worst period of time in my life.
I don't know how long I can hold this.
There are things that I can do about it but I don't give a damn.

And things will continue getting worse and worse each day.
Let it be.
I feel my head will explode someday.
Sometimes, I think I am better off dead.

They say things will pass.
We can go through all hard times.
I doubt if things will ever be the same.

I have lost all people I love this year.
Will I regret I let them go because I felt there's no need to beg when they decided to go?

Can anyone live the life alone?
I guess so. If not, it won't be long that I do.