First sign of progress

Today, I start to feel that the pain is going away. I start to understand that the pain comes from the fact that I am losing the feeling of being special to someone. Now that feelings are gone so I feel like I am left alone in this world and I am worthless.

I still have a lot of love from my family but I guess, for human being, only that kind of love is not enough. It's just human nature that we need to love and be loved. We can't change that. The needs will always be there but we have ability to ignore some of them. It's not a hard thing to do, actually, to ignore some of those feelings. However, to balance what's essential and what's not so we can still live in this world happily is difficult.

I remember the time I can live my life happily. I think I am getting there again. Of course, I am getting there.