Join Salsa class, just to accompany my russian colleauge.
Only two are thai, including me. The rest are non-thai.
One of the guy is a real jerk and that woman is a real bitch.

There are very few times that I regret for what I did.
This is one of them.

SOB!!

Some guy breaks his promise and says he doesn't want to hurt anyone by lies. I didn't know promises are only lies, SOB.

Paid a lot of money last month and this month, mostly on car. It's time, probably. Been driving it for 10 years now, had few problems in the past but this time, it's pretty big. After this fix, I hope I will still drive it for some more years.

Other bills are piling up. Never thought I'd be in this situation. I have lost my liquidity but it's good for me. So I won't be robbed again.

Can't blame anyone. I got myself into trouble. Now suffer the consequnces. Life's always fair when benefits are nowhere around.

I killed a bunch of ants today. They were in my instant noodle. I think I ate some of them too before I realized they were walking on my noodle. They were eating my noodle too, or my msg. I was thinking why my noodle was not as crispy as it usually was. I should have known.

I tried not to kill but I end up killing more this year, roaches and ants. I don't see any flies at all. Where have they gone? Are they extinct? Oh...now I remember I see some of them at the restaurant today but not at my home.

The biggest living thing that I had killed is the lizards, not on purpose though. When I was young and lived in the other house, there were lots of lizards. They were everywhere, in my bedroom, at the windows, at the door, on the ceiling, on the wall. Thier favourite place must be at the door so every time I shut it, it must have squeeze them flat and they died in an ugly way. I should have felt sorry for them but only felt sorry for myself. I had to see their body all inside out several times. Poor creature but I hate them the most.

The more I hate them, the more I have to be near them. Those lizards liked to stay on the ceiling while I laid down on the floor watching TV. They waited for some insects to fly by so they could let themselves go from the ceiling and eat those insects in the middle of the air. It would have been a cool way to eat their dinner if they hadn't land on my leg every time they did that. I wanted to scream when I felt those creatures falling on my leg.

After moving to his house, I still see lizards but much much less than before. Lizards here are a little bit better, but I still hate them, they run away from my sight everytime I see them. Good that they know how to be where they're supposed to be.

So I don't kill lizard anymore. Now I have problem with roaches most of the time but not so often. My mom and dad kill them all.

I hope I won't have to kill anyone again from now on. It's a sin.

That Girl's Diary

She wrote she loved him so much and didn't understand what went wrong. He thought she had been unfaithful and faking. She denied it in her diary. It is sad to find out the truth this way.

She wrote she couldn't stand the feelings she felt each morning when she woke up and the thought of not being loved by him. She couldn't imagine how to live this way, without his love.

Poor girl, too young, too fragile. Really feel sorry for her parents. Everyone is in pain.