I killed a bunch of ants today. They were in my instant noodle. I think I ate some of them too before I realized they were walking on my noodle. They were eating my noodle too, or my msg. I was thinking why my noodle was not as crispy as it usually was. I should have known.

I tried not to kill but I end up killing more this year, roaches and ants. I don't see any flies at all. Where have they gone? Are they extinct? Oh...now I remember I see some of them at the restaurant today but not at my home.

The biggest living thing that I had killed is the lizards, not on purpose though. When I was young and lived in the other house, there were lots of lizards. They were everywhere, in my bedroom, at the windows, at the door, on the ceiling, on the wall. Thier favourite place must be at the door so every time I shut it, it must have squeeze them flat and they died in an ugly way. I should have felt sorry for them but only felt sorry for myself. I had to see their body all inside out several times. Poor creature but I hate them the most.

The more I hate them, the more I have to be near them. Those lizards liked to stay on the ceiling while I laid down on the floor watching TV. They waited for some insects to fly by so they could let themselves go from the ceiling and eat those insects in the middle of the air. It would have been a cool way to eat their dinner if they hadn't land on my leg every time they did that. I wanted to scream when I felt those creatures falling on my leg.

After moving to his house, I still see lizards but much much less than before. Lizards here are a little bit better, but I still hate them, they run away from my sight everytime I see them. Good that they know how to be where they're supposed to be.

So I don't kill lizard anymore. Now I have problem with roaches most of the time but not so often. My mom and dad kill them all.

I hope I won't have to kill anyone again from now on. It's a sin.