After a month

Nights are lonely
The days are so sad
I just keep thinking about
The day that we had

And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me

Another friend in similar situation

Got a phone call from a friend, known her from secondary school, asking for a direction to some destination in BKK. She's originally from BKK but, like me, has no clue about streets and highway in the city. And she's calling me for help!!

She got an interview with some company near my office. So that, I can help. Had a very short conversation but called her again in the evening to catch up with things.

I don't usually hang out much with friends but I can say, in those rare time, she's the one whom I hang out with the most. We went to nine temples together, had lunch or dinner together. She used to mention something about having problem with guys but when I asked for more explanation, she changed the subject.

This time, she told me it's been 3 months since she broke up with her boyfriend so I came to realized she's been in a recovery stage like me. But 3 months have passed for her and she still couldn't talk about what happened. I began to see my future. Mine is only 3 weeks. Very long time to go....for the both of us. Huh....

Right Sizing

In LIU, learned the right-sizing strategy, never thought I'd be in that situation.

At the end of January, the site manager announced the company needed to lay off some employees. Our site is small but there's no exception. Two of my colleagues were selected and it was so sudden. I understand the need but the way he did was so unacceptable.

After calling each one of the two personally to break out the bad news, he insisted that they left the office immediately. Both were girls. One of them took it in a hard way, she couldn't stop crying and still couldn't understand why it had to be her. Everybody else had gone for lunch. I just happened to skip lunch that day so I had witnessed everything.

The girl was still in shock and tried to collect her belongings into her bag. I was with her to help and tried to console her. I felt really bad and could help end up crying with her. The site manager came to us and made us leave the office before everybody else came back from lunch. He did that repeatedly till we left the office. He told her to come back tomorrow for her stuff. I think that was cruel. He just took a job from her and now he's chasing her away just because he didn't want to see a scene in his office!!

I walked her out of the office and then the other victim came back from lunch. She was alone with the site manager while everybody else was still at lunch break and, worse, she was my teammate. I came back after spending times with the first girl who's my close colleague, just to find out my teammate was laid off too. And I didn't even have time to be with her when she left the office.

The internal meeting was held immediately after everybody was back from the break. It was a big shock for everyone and we couldn't concentrate on our work that whole afternoon. We are such a small site and we think the money the company spend on us was so less that they wouldn't take us into account. We have always been the forgetten site but now our site is one of the target of getting rid off.

Well, business is business. I hate when they say these things happen. I just can't accept that we, the operation level employees, are always the victim of the failure of their management.

Friend in the similar situation 2

She called me again and told that the guy broke up with her. I felt sorry for her.

People say she's lucky, that jerk is out of her life. I agree and so does she. However, the feelings are unrelated. We can't just ignore the fact that someone we care the most is now out of our life for good.

Each person must have taken it in different way. I wonder when we, woman, got broke up by a guy, do we feel the same thing?

After realizing that things won't be the same, I felt like he has taken all my happiness out of me, out of every single cell within me. I felt like I have lost the ability to feel all kind of joys that exist in this world. I felt like I have lost a big thing that previously live within me, the thing that was so essential. I felt like I was falling but nobody was there to catch me. It's so painful and torturous. I couldn't even ask any questions because it would only make me feel more painful. I couldn't hear another word out of him because each one of them just cut deeper into my heart. The most painful sentence was "I am sorry". And how can he say I was the last person in the world that he wanted to hurt while I am now the only person in this world whom he has hurt repeatedly.

I won't blame him for being another guy who has to leave me. I won't blame him for what he did or didn't do. I don't understand what had happened but I understand that I am not the one. I will blame only my destiny that brought the chance to meet him and then took him away.

My friend cried and kept on talking. It's so sad that women always have to cry for men. Listening to my friend just reminded me of those things I have avoided thinking of. It made me even sadder. It will take a while for both of us to get over it but, at least, we are two people, who are suffering with the same thing.

We are lucky. At least, we are not crying alone.