how long will this go on?
too much pain,
crying doesn't help releasing any of it
still, tears are falling down my face

I am dying inside but still have to be normal around people
impossible to do but must drag every second of it

love always bring more pain and sorrow than happiness
always started with illusion, then trapped in hell
can't live with it, can't get out of it

no one around to help
no one can help

friend whom I thought would understand me the most had left
I stood by her for whatever she did, good or bad in the eyes of others
it's wrong to expect the same thing from anyone else
Perhaps, too much to ask

Always have to go through things on my own

some people are strong
will I have that strength?

I want to die

she had lost her ability to feel the world
she continued her life normally but with no heart
it seemed her all senses had been damaged

another drop of my tear is falling down my face
I don't know if I am crying for her or myself

change the book to read something more cheerful
my tear is still falling and falling
maybe I am still sad for her,
maybe I am sad for....something else

I know how to stop the pain