my 5th year today

I love you

indian speak so fast, too fast...
are they always in a hurry?

israeli shout a lot
whenever site manager is not in office,
feel like being in a cemetary

thai gossip A LOT
it's good everybody forgets about me most of the time

why am I not speaking at all?
why are other people have a lot of things to say all the time?

september 29 will be the 5th year
getting a plant, called plant
it's green, dark green here, light green there
my plant is the most beautiful
hope it won't die too soon
can't wait to see its flower, if any

went to fitness, manage to lose 2 kgs in ..... (whatever)
amdocs dinner last friday, gained them back. Damn it!
never mind, eat first, think later.

went to fitness, didn't like the trainner much
in one hour, 15 minutes running, half an hour canoeing
why do I need a trainner for those?

love the steam room
girls are like pros, changing into towel without dropping anything
hm...how did they do it?
never mind, I'll change in the bathroom.

thought about swimming lesson
found the swimming pool to practice
but it never stops raining
hm...maybe I don't need swimming skill
I won't go into the water anywhere anyway

I love my job
but I hate it sometimes...
most of the time...
how come it's not fun any more?

I am so dumb

went to have lunch at the life-time restaurent.
called life-time coz it took forever to get our food.
we usually go there for lunch though coz the food there is the best.

while waiting, saw a new coffee shop near by.
a guy sitting, looked bored, no customer.
went to buy a cup of coffee, though a tea person.
ordered mocca, whatever that is.
tasted like coffee.

felt sleepy that afternoon as usual.
coffee didn't help.
but then, at night, couldn't close my eyes for hours.
couldn't remember when I fell asleep.

woke up late the next morning, that damn coffee!
drove in my sleep.
before I knew, I reached office building.

stopped by Mcdonald, buying something for breakfast.
a guy took order, told me how much it was.
damn expensive burger.
he shouted to the back, one burger to go!
he reached for plastic bag, put napkin in, ketchup in, receipt in.
then he handed me the bag.
took the bag from him.
looked in the bag.
looked at him.
looked in the bag.
looked at him.
he looked confused.
was I drunk from coffee yesterday or he still sleeping?
took a while before we came back to our sense.

reached office late than usual.
site manager gave 'the look'.
whatever.

Moments in Life

King's Hall. Midnight. Spring just started. Tulips under moonlight.

Rested my eyes after hours of reading, took fresh air outside the study room on the third floor's balcony. Took deep breath but then choking suddenly by the cigarratte smoke from ground floor. Who the hell was that, destroying my fresh air? Poked my head to see and found the source, that asian guy, Dante's friend.

Stared at him from third floor with evil eyes. liked he had a radar to detect my evil sight, he looked up. "hi, there" he said. He remembered me.

Before that day, he and I walked passed each other a few times. He stared at me for some reason, surely not admirably, everytime we met in the hall. pretty mad at him, how rude! few days later, Dante's took me to meet his NICE friend just came a few days. couldn't believe it's him.

it's impossible to hide my surprise and seemed he was surprised also from his pause after Dante's introduction. still staring, this a-hole!! talked a little, tried to be polite then excused myself to do my homework. thought we'd never have to meet again.

the King's Hall wasn't that big. met him again and this time i had to have conversation with him.

"hi" right back at him, then a few words and excused myself to go back to study room. a few minutes later, he showed up at the study room. then we talked a little about programs here. another student was in the room so we went out to the same balcony and continued talking. talked about things on campus, programs here, etc etc, the moon, the tulips, the atmosphere. well, he wasn't that bad. before i knew, hours had passed by.

The next night at midnight, wanted to go out for a fresh air but remembered the previous night (or morning), was afraid to meet the guy. had so much to read, couldn't have any distraction. continued reading till 2 am, then went out for fresh air. nice weather. pretty moonlight. hm...is he there? poked to see and surprisingly, my eyes met with the same eyes. "Hi there, it's you again" he said.

Third floor and ground floor. it became our meeting point. the story began there, like romeo and juliet. Like a fairly tale. Luckily, it didn't have the same ending. Nobody died but no happily everafter either.

One of a few moments in life.

I hope it's the start of the end.
LHC

someone always wanted to kill me in my dream.