Embrance Reality

When you deny the reality of life, you appreciate it less. Meditate on the Buddha's Five Remembrances and rediscover the magic of life just as it is.

I am of the nature to grow old.
There is no way to escape growing old.

I am of the nature to have ill health.
There is no way to escape ill health.

I am of the nature to die.
There is no way to escape death.

All that is dear to me and everyone I love
are the nature to change.

There is no way to escape
being separated from them.

My actions are my only true belongings.
I cannot escape the consequences of my actions.

My actions are the ground upon which I stand.

By Thich Nhat Hanh

Thich Nhat Hanh‎

The ocean of suffering is immense, but if you turn around, you can see the land. The seed of suffering in you may be strong, but don't wait until you have no more suffering before allowing yourself to be happy.

When one tree in the garden is sick, you have to care for it. But don't overlook all the healthy trees. Even while you have pain in your heart, you can enjoy the many wonders of life - the beautiful sunset, the smile of a child, the many flowers and trees. To suffer is not enough. Please don't be imprisoned by your suffering. If you have experienced hunger, you know that having food is a miracle. If you have suffered from the cold, you know the preciousness of warmth. When you have suffered, you know how to appreciate the elements of paradise that are present.

If you dwell only in your suffering, you will miss paradise. Don't ignore your suffering, but don't forget to enjoy the wonders of life, for your sake and for the benefit of many beings.

Change the job might help.

Thought writing helps.
Obviously not.

All guys are the same.

A smart person makes everyone happy.
A selfish person makes himself happy.
A stupid person makes others happy without making himself happy.

I not only can't make myself happy but also make everyone around me unhappy.

I had a good life.
I was happy.
Why am I letting one person ruin everything?

Keep going down and down.
Already hurt others.
Already made mistakes.
Things are already done.
I'll go all the way.

We die eventually, why bother?

They say after we cry, we will feel better.
That's not true.

Hell

I killed a toad today. It didn't die immediatly. Saw it try to jump but its flat body was too sticky with blood. It's dark so I couldn't see well but I can tell.

A taxi was coming. I was hoping that taxi would put that toad out of its misery but it didn't. I couldn't look at him any longer. Felt so terrible, and so sorry.

I can't imagine how much worse my cousin felt when he ran over a kitten.

I am sorry,toad. Terribly sorry.

Lin

12 years ago, had a ski trip with Chinese Student Association. Only 4 of us were Thai and many of chinese students were our classmates. Had a lot of fun skiing for the first time in NY.

On the way back, we stopped by one the the famous caves but didn't pay much attention to it. Just a cave, I thoght. We walked down inside the cave. It was like other caves I'd been to. I saw in the cave the stones looking like fried-eggs; then, I remembered I had been in this cave before. I was so excited.

The reason I was excited was because, 12 years earlier, I was here with my family. I remembered there was also a wishing well. My mother told me to make a wish and it would come true. So I got my coin and started wishing. I didn't believe it at that time so I just wished that I would come back here again. I think I forgot all about it within that day.

12 years later, I was there again. It took as long as 12 years for my wish to come true. We kept walking in the cave and there it was, the wishing well. So I though of making another wish. I got the coin in my hand and made a wish. It was just a funny thought but I really hoped it would come true.

Another 12 years have passed, and today , the wish I made has really come true. I know it's just a coincidence but, whatever it is, I am glad it really happens.

Something to do

Got nothing to do so drove to the beach the other day. Many people there coz it was a long holiday. Sat on one of the beach chairs, sellers started coming to sell food, drinks, and snacks. Bought some snacks and drink but wasn't really hungry.

It was late afternoon so the sunshine wasn't so strong. Saw kids playing, building small mountain from sand. Many people were in the sea, floating here and there. Some on jetski, banaba boats, and parachutes.

Laying down doing nothing but watching them playing, running, strolling along the seashore. Seemed like my brain was totally empty. Nothing to think about.

The sun was setting. Even though the sky was clear but couldn't see the sun touching the sea because there were clouds at the horizon. The last time I saw a beautiful view of the sunset was 3 years ago, at the country club, Tel Aviv, Israel. The most beautiful sunset I've ever seen.

Driving back to BKK at night, not much traffic. Reached home before midnight. No one knew where I went.

Summer 07

Summer has begun a long time ago but it feels more like a rainy season. It was hot for a few days; then, from Thai New Year's day, it has never stopped raining.

It's good in a way that we don't have to suffer the hot weather so much. During winter, in the beginning of the year, it was so cold for a long period of time. We thought it would be extreamly hot in summer.

But we are experiencing a very wierd weather. Greenhouse effect, they say. I wonder if that movie of Al gore didn't come out, will they ever realize this fact? The movie was bad though. Understand why it's getting warmer but don't know why it's also colder in winter and brings more rain. Anyway, it gives a very good influence to Thai people, and I guess, to lots of people around the world.

Rain rain rain, it's raining even now. Most people don't like it but I do. He likes rain also and I guess he likes to go out in the rain and get wet. I don't like being wet. I don't like driving in the rain either. Can't see well and I don't trust my ABS.

I wonder how it will be like in rainy season this year.

there is someone waiting
she asks herself repeatedly
will it ever happen?

it seems so long and hopeless
lost, tiring, and endless
how many years
how many days are left for her to live
until her wish will come true

she's not blind but she refuses to see
she chooses to torture herself with this illusion
day seems so long and night hardly ends

how many years
how many days are left for her to live
will it ever happen?

I hate long holidays, always makes everything worse.

Why do I want to be out of the pain?
Perhaps, the pain is good.
Happiness doesn't stay but the pain does.

People try to find happiness when pain is always around.
Why don't we live with pain? It's the only thing that is always there.