I wonder how you have been since January. Haven't heard any news from you, there's no way to know how you are doing. But I guess you are happy with your life as usual. Especially happy with the girl you love.

It's been more than 3 months and there is not a day I don't think of you. I have to stop myself everyday not to write to you. Only because I still not ready to hear all about your happiness with that girl. There are too much pain now that I can't handle. So I am not ready.

I wonder everyday why I have so much feelings for you. I doubt why not even a fraction has left me. All my feelings are still with me. I still cry every night. Now I know those women didn't lie when they siad they cried every night for months.

I don't want to be like them but there's nothing I can do.

Worst thing is I pray everyday for you to come back.

How can I get over you?

letter

Three months have passed.
Only one of us is happy.

Another hard time

It's been 3 months but the pain is still with me. Looks like it has no where else to go. I cry almost everynight thinking about the things that will never come back to me. Things that will never happen to me again.

It's really hard to stop myself from thinking of him. Well, actually, I never stop myself. There are times that I want to write him and ask him how he is doing. But then I know the answers. He's happy with his life. He is not thinking about me at all. Or maybe he wonder how I am doing but I don't want that. I want him back to be the same. If not, he'd better stay away from me like this always.

It's hard living my life, trying to get through each day. I really have lost ability to enjoy. Worst, I make people around me worry about me.

How long will this continue? I have lost all my strength and feel so weak. I don't know what keep me alive each day.

I am just a body without any soul.