Another day in pain

Received his mail, saying he won't disturb me again EVER. It's exactly what I wanted but when he said it out loud I felt really bad, and hurt. However, this is for the best. I can't feel worse than this anyway.

Am I making mistake to be out of his life?
Not only his, but also his whole family's.
I am hurt when I hear about him from his family.
I am hurt when he shows that he only cares but not love.
I am hurt when thinking I am close to them but will never be part of them.
So, this is for the best.

I guess I have to go through all these feelings for that best thing.
Best things are always expensive.