Obsessed

Wake up this morning, it's still the first thing I think about. Feel so terrible and painful to realize that things have changed, or worse, haven't even existed.

Remember when people say they feel like there is a big hole in the heart, feel like something is missing, feel the emptiness, don't know how to live wihtout him, what to do without him, those kind of feelings. I am experiencing them all.

Start to see I have so many free time and those times are used to think about him only. That needs to be changed. I need to go out more with other people, to keep me away from being alone, to occupy my mind with something else.

This pain must go away. Hope it does very soon.