The J-Festival has started. I have never been a part of it, never tell myself not to eat meat to give slaughters a break or to let those animal live a little longer (doubt it! they keep killing anyway).

I feel sorry for cow, pig, chicken, fish, and all other animal. If I start feeling sorry for vegetables, what will I eat??

Yeah.. I am selfish and I used to feel quilty about it but that doesn't do any good to me or anyone else. Now I stop feeling quilty and continue eating whatever I want. If that's a sin, I will pay my sin later, whenever, whatever.

On this first day of the festival, I had J for lunch. But my dad have prepared beef steak for me this evening. It's a sin to have beef. It's a sin to break my dad's heart. Well, I'll go to hell either way so I should make myself happy before going.